R.I.P Dear Utarians

Anyone who read the news might know that there is actually an incident that happened which cost the lives of 3 UTAR students in Kampar.

Those that are intrested to know more about the story can have a look at

UTAR students drowned

At here,I would like to offer my condolences to their parents.It hurt's so much when you get to know that someone that is close to you suddenly departs.I know the feeling because I got through it not long ago.

If some realised,my grandfather passed away during my study week last semester.I was then decided not to go back to hometown because it will actually took up my study time.And when my final exam finished,I went back hometown just to see my mother pass away the next day.Yeah, all my relatives told me that my mother was just waiting to have a look at me for the very last time.And what actually happened the day before my mother passed away?I didn't even talked to her for more than 20 sentences.This is the part which I'm really angry about myself of.

And to make it more worst,I get to know that my mother actually planned to cook my favourite dishes and bring it over to Kampar and celebrate with me.Imagine that.From Penang to Kampar.My father actually did not agree to it because of my mother's condition then.So this is another part where it touches my heart.

So what did my mother left me with?A going to be cyber cafe counter brother and going to be lala mui sister.I did told my father that once I come out working,I will support my sister schooling but looking at what is going on at the house,I guess I would be happy that she is not kicked from the school.Brother goes school at morning and sister plays computer.Sister goes to school at afternoon and brother plays computer.What would be the ending?I guess my prediction might be true after all.

That day,I asked my brother "When are you going to study?" and what's the reply?"After you went back to UTAR".My goodness,I'm at house and I see you play computer everyday and you tell me that you are going to study once I head back to Kampar?Utter nonsense.Since then,I did not talked to my brother.I wonder how long will this goes.I don't care if I don't talk to him anyway because I won't be at home all the time.Kampar now seems to be my new home and I think I'm starting to like this town,minus the food,shoping complexes and cinemas of course.

Do I look happy to you?I might be but will I keep everything inside of me?Every chances of it. Hmm,I wonder which would it be?